yes, I'm still here

Sorry bloggers that I've been gone for so long. I had every intention of writing here about once a day...but then facebook got ahold of me and I started posting there and playing games there also. I guess my blog took 2nd, 3rd or ...well it doesn't matter. The couple of followers I had, well, they seem to be gone.

Anyway, I am doing good. I am in my 28th week of my pregnancy now.
Sometimes it feels like it went soooo fast...and then others, it seems to be dragging by but its been a healthy one. Healthy is one positive note I'm trying to put with this lol. This has been tough so far. I'm more tired with this pregnancy than with the other 4, I'm more sore...but when you take into account I am also running a full time daycare in my home of 6 kids on top of this..and taking care of my own family and homeschooling....well, I guess I have every good reason to be tired.

Anyway, I hope to jump on here more often ...to get my followers back....Until then....and I won't say when cause I might just hop back on here today....and surprise all of you :)

This was touching to me.

"But the angel said to her, 'Do not be afraid, Mary, you have found favor with God.'"

Luke 1:30 (NIV)

Ten years ago I sat in a seminar listening to a very organized mom talking about how she parented her kids.
She was an amazing woman; a super mom in my eyes.
I held up my feeble efforts with my three toddlers and determined I stunk as a mother.
I thought that maybe if I went home and imitated her, I could enter into the world of super moms.
I mentally listed out what I discerned must be her secret to success and set about to be just like her.
But it didn't take me long to become absolutely miserable.
I mentally beat myself up for not having what it obviously took to be a great mom.
What was wrong with me?
I begged God to make me just like her - that really good mom.
And then one day in Bible study I read the story of Mary, the teenage mother of Jesus.
My heart beat fast as I realized she didn't meet the standard of super mom I'd set for myself.
Somehow, just as she was, God chose her to be Jesus' mother.
And the only qualification that she seemed to have was her willingness.
I made the choice to try and let go of all those expectations I had for myself as a mom.
I let go of the comparisons to other moms.
I laid down the measuring stick of perfection.
And I simply bowed my head and gave God my willingness.
Slowly, I started to see my own unique qualities as a mom instead of always focusing on the places I felt I fell so short.

I may not be the most organized mom, but I'm a fun mom willing to drop my to-do list in the name of spontaneity.

I may not do sit-down devotions with my kids every morning, but I'm good at helping my kids see God working in situations all through out our days.

I may not sew a lick, but I know where to find an alterationist that is the bomb.

I may not always keep my cool in the everyday aggravations of life, but throw something big at me and somehow I'll be the calmest person in the room.

Sure, I have a lot of room for growth in my mothering.
God and I work on things daily.
But over the past ten years I've learned how to embrace who I am and the beauty of living fully as me.
And while I still fall short at times, I'm finally learning that being fully me is so much better than an imitation version of someone else.
I have the exact qualities God knew my kids would need in a mother.

So, each day I hold up my willingness and ask God to make me the best version of me I can be.

wanna keep up with me?

I have started a journal on my pregnancy...
Wanna keep up....???

http://whosepregnantat41.blogspot.com/

Isn't this beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. Ralph Waldo Emerson