yes, I'm still here

Sorry bloggers that I've been gone for so long. I had every intention of writing here about once a day...but then facebook got ahold of me and I started posting there and playing games there also. I guess my blog took 2nd, 3rd or ...well it doesn't matter. The couple of followers I had, well, they seem to be gone.

Anyway, I am doing good. I am in my 28th week of my pregnancy now.
Sometimes it feels like it went soooo fast...and then others, it seems to be dragging by but its been a healthy one. Healthy is one positive note I'm trying to put with this lol. This has been tough so far. I'm more tired with this pregnancy than with the other 4, I'm more sore...but when you take into account I am also running a full time daycare in my home of 6 kids on top of this..and taking care of my own family and homeschooling....well, I guess I have every good reason to be tired.

Anyway, I hope to jump on here more often ...to get my followers back....Until then....and I won't say when cause I might just hop back on here today....and surprise all of you :)

This was touching to me.

"But the angel said to her, 'Do not be afraid, Mary, you have found favor with God.'"

Luke 1:30 (NIV)

Ten years ago I sat in a seminar listening to a very organized mom talking about how she parented her kids.
She was an amazing woman; a super mom in my eyes.
I held up my feeble efforts with my three toddlers and determined I stunk as a mother.
I thought that maybe if I went home and imitated her, I could enter into the world of super moms.
I mentally listed out what I discerned must be her secret to success and set about to be just like her.
But it didn't take me long to become absolutely miserable.
I mentally beat myself up for not having what it obviously took to be a great mom.
What was wrong with me?
I begged God to make me just like her - that really good mom.
And then one day in Bible study I read the story of Mary, the teenage mother of Jesus.
My heart beat fast as I realized she didn't meet the standard of super mom I'd set for myself.
Somehow, just as she was, God chose her to be Jesus' mother.
And the only qualification that she seemed to have was her willingness.
I made the choice to try and let go of all those expectations I had for myself as a mom.
I let go of the comparisons to other moms.
I laid down the measuring stick of perfection.
And I simply bowed my head and gave God my willingness.
Slowly, I started to see my own unique qualities as a mom instead of always focusing on the places I felt I fell so short.

I may not be the most organized mom, but I'm a fun mom willing to drop my to-do list in the name of spontaneity.

I may not do sit-down devotions with my kids every morning, but I'm good at helping my kids see God working in situations all through out our days.

I may not sew a lick, but I know where to find an alterationist that is the bomb.

I may not always keep my cool in the everyday aggravations of life, but throw something big at me and somehow I'll be the calmest person in the room.

Sure, I have a lot of room for growth in my mothering.
God and I work on things daily.
But over the past ten years I've learned how to embrace who I am and the beauty of living fully as me.
And while I still fall short at times, I'm finally learning that being fully me is so much better than an imitation version of someone else.
I have the exact qualities God knew my kids would need in a mother.

So, each day I hold up my willingness and ask God to make me the best version of me I can be.

wanna keep up with me?

I have started a journal on my pregnancy...
Wanna keep up....???

http://whosepregnantat41.blogspot.com/

Isn't this beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better. Ralph Waldo Emerson

End of days...

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, "I used everything you gave me". - Erma Bombeck

Our military

I saw a saying from an email that was sent to me today....
Think about it and honor one today!!!!!!!!




A veteran is someone who, at one point in his life, wrote a blank checkmade payable to "The United States of America" for an amount of up to and including my life.'

That is Honor, and there are way too many people in this country who
no longer understand it.'

Beautiful Song

I heard a beautiful song the other day sung on God tube.com by a little girl and here are the lyrics.

Read them slowly ...carefully...like your life lives on each word.

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming
Indescribable,
uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

Meditate on that today during your quiet time.....
Do not get so used to hearing God's Word that you become numb to its message.
Be Blessed

Does this picure make you FEEL anything?
I saw this picture on a dear person's myspace and it struck a heartstring.
Its so beautiful.
All I want to do is be like God created me to be and nothing more and nothing less and now at 41 years old, I'm just starting to figure that out and not fight it anymore.

I have been given a gift but I fight the gift. Ever done that before?
I feel like Jonah who God called to save people and he didn't want to do it.

I'll share....
I have a soft heart for people...
Have you ever gotten mad at someone because they put you down or did something to hurt you?
It happens to everyone right?
But when it happens to me, I don't stay angry.
I try...cause I WANT to stay angry cause sometimes I feel like if I stay angry then the person who did wrong to me got what they deserved but lately I'm realizing that the heart God gave me to forgive and not to stay angry is a gift that not too many people have.
I also have an empathtic heart.
Its a blessing and a curse cause I can "weep with those who weep and rejoice with those who rejoice" but the weeping part is the hardest part.

I feel such sadness for people....Its almost like I internal someone else's pain and it hurts but I know I can do that to HELP others.

I'm just realizing the potential God has given me and I'm not sure how to handle it.
I feel like He is preparing me .....not sure what for...but its definitely for something
Pray for me will you?
I want to do with my life what God wants....
I don't usually do well with change.....
God Bless
Nikki

History is made...in more ways than one

If God wanted to add todays history to His Good Book, what would he say?
Yes I know having a black president is a new one for the history books....nothing wrong with that.
But will he keep the Lords statutes as he leads our country?
Will he keep the Laws put in place by our founding fathers who had their faith in our Lord which you can see in all of the speeches and writings of our forefathers.

If you haven't seen the video lecture, the Silencing of God, please do a search online for it.
I believe you can purchase a copy pretty inexpencively or watch or listen to it online for free.

God will NOT be silenced people and for those who think that their cause to put away God is working, just wait.

God will DO the silencing...and He will NOT be silenced. Those who try to do so will be snuffed out.

I do not worry about our country.
God is in control.
He has always been in control.
and He always will be.

Lean not upon your own understanding cause your ways are not Gods way but acknowlege the Lord in all things !!!!

Hello everyone....
I know its been a very long time since I've written last and all I can come up with for an excuse...
Just don't feel like writing.
As it got closer to 2009 I felt myself sinking into a depression.
Why?
Alot has happened in the past year that I really cannot go into here.
But I don't think I have the brain energy to put into this blog on a regular basis.

I am thankful for all of my faithful readers and hope to write when I can.

Be blessed everyone!