New mom?

One thing I've found from having Sergio is that I feel like this brand new mom all over again.
Its weird...I mean, I have the knowledge and wisdom that comes from experience but this newly found feeling of awe is just interesting to me.

He wakes up in the morning, and when he smiles and plays with me, I have the feeling well up within me...that I just want to squeeze him! Like I've never played with a baby before.

And these feelings I have are not only with Sergio, its with each one of my kids.

Michael, although he is 21 and will be 22 in June, I just want to hug him so tightly!
Joey, yes, he's 17 and 18 in May...even though he has this Mr. Tough guy persona....I just want to squeeze him till he pops.
Tony and Angel...same thing. I look at each one with such amazement now. How in the world can this happen?

I believe a baby in your life gives you a brand new appreciation for life in general. Look around you....everything is new and exciting when you look at it from a baby's perspective. If you do something new, he's never seen before...he is amazed. Why not take on that new found excitement in our own lives. Look for things to be amazed at. God created this beautiful world and universe for us to explore and be amazed by. Enjoy it! Take it in!!! and while you are enjoying all of it...don't forget to thank God for it too!

God's Family Planning

And the Lord said to Abraham, " Why did Sarah laugh, saying, 'Shall I indeed bear a child, when I am so old?' Is there anything too difficult for the Lord?

----So why this scripture this morning?
It touches my heart because I've always trusted in God to control my family planning.
After Angel was born, I had a misscarriage at 3 weeks of pregnancy. I didn't even know I was pregnant nor was I even trying to get pregnant. Mike and I thought..YES THOUGHT, we were done after Angel so me being pregnant really threw me for a loop.
Then when I found out I was losing the baby...I vowed to never take our family planning into our own hands again. So many people threw their opinions at us saying things like, " Oh you sure you want to do that? You'll have more babies than you can handle?" Well, so much for that. 12 years of "God planning" and even when I thought it was "impossible" because of me starting pre-menopause stuff...God knew what He was doing.

And Sergio's story began....from a mere prayer from my daughter to a boy who blesses my life daily!

Even again, I still continue to hear, " Are you guys done yet having children?"

The mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. Proverbs 16:9

Let them ask that of God and see what His answer will be lol :)

On my mind today...

Its Wednesday and for our family this means Bible Study tonight.
Truthfully I find myself reluctant to go. Ever since Sergio was born, I find it very difficult to motivate myself to do much of anything outside the house. I can't really leave him home...and it takes so much energy and preparation to take him with me...I just want to stay at home.

Now, before you all start telling me how important it IS to go...I know this very well. Yes, it sets a good example to my kids and to others. I know this....But I'm in the process of finding motivators to go.

I am thinking of either teaching or help to teach the cradle roll class at church.
I am not ready to leave Sergio. He's only 8 weeks old...and he's not ready to leave me either :)

Now, to leave my house to go anywhere besides church? Its getting easier. I took Sergio with me to pick up Joey from work and usually he cries in the car seat ..and not just a whine. We are talking full cry ...chin shake cry. Mothers, you know what I mean.

But he was awake in his seat and very content. So many changes in just 8 weeks of his short life so far. Thank you DEAR LORD for giving me my family. I love my job..as a wife, and mother and teacher and caregiver. May I never take it for granted!!

New Beginnings

So many things have changed in my life since I started my blog here. I began this when I moved to Ohio from Virginia when Mike was retiring from the Navy. Now, I've been in Martins Ferry, Ohio for over 3 years now. My kids are growing up like crazy and I have a new baby on top of it all. Michael is now a Wheeling Police Officer, Joey is almost graduated, Tony and Angel are practically teenagers...and Sergio is now 8 weeks old. YIKES!

I love my life....even the hardships I go thru. I've seen time and time again that whatever the world throws at me, God can and HAS gotten me through it. I hope my kids get that from seeing me go through tough times. I want my life that I live on this earth to be a life that people can learn from.

Friends, family, acquaitences, and even strangers...chances to show a bit of God's love and mercy to people who might not get to see any of it otherwise.

Purpose filled life? Each one of us has our own book within us...that we could fill mulitiple pages with our stories of why we live today and what our purposes are?

Start thinking about yours. What is your purpose? What does God want from YOU? And start working to get there.